First effects of Hel(L)

I am through L.
I don't know whether to be Happy that I finally got it or relieved that it got over.
Having very mixed feelings.All your life you keep on fighting for certain things and when you achieve them,you feel confused.I wanted this?
Its a predicament which everybody face at one point or other.
When I read the IIM blogs,people say that their lives have changed.For good or for worse,they don't even know.I want to be intact.Happy,Honest,Happening guy.
I just don't want to become what they say as "Another Brick in the Wall".I want to carve a space for myself.People lose how to feel when they are at a B school.They become antipaths to the sufferings of the common strata.Like they are in a different world away from ground realities.
If I can come out of this rigorous schedule of 2 long winding years with my conscience with me,I would be more than happy.I know its very pessimistic of me to think about these things when I should be at the top of the world.May be I am scared.Scared because of the change.B'coz of the ocmfort level that I have put myself in and these are just withdrawl symptoms.May be I'm expecting too much.
Lets see how things shape up at the Nawaabi Sheher.
Till then,its all fingers crossed...