CAT Blues...

The countdown has started.Its 48 days more to go and suddenly I am filled again with all those butterflies in my stomach which come when you are afraid.

The reasons are not hard to fathom.

Its been a constant fight against all odds and its me who is losing because the other side is myself only.

When you embark upon something great,you realize that constant struggles are not difficult if they are up against some external factors but to fight with yourself...

 

Preparing for CAT has taught me many things.

The consistency or the lack of it,focus and self motivating yourself on a daily basis are the keystones which define your personality in a big way.

One error and you are out of the game.

Have I really prepared?If I ask myself this question Honestly,the answer would be NO.

And I should be all prepared to face the results also.This procrastination,lack of single mindedness is driving me crazy and it is not only for CAT.

 

May be I am afraid of hard work.May be I am too smug or complacent to really care.

I once said that the biggest positive I can do in my life is to do full justice to my potential.

And the result is now tending towards minus Infinity...

All hell will break loose.

But then there is silverline in every cloud and in my case also it would be there.The earlier I see it,the better it is for me and the world.